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Dinner time came by soon after and Samantha still wasn’t home.
Martin figured she had a case to handle and would likely be out until late into the night. But while the girls were still awake, he sat with them in the living room after dinner and put on a favorite movie of theirs. He hadn’t seen nor heard of it before, but both Jemma and Audrey loved it. And it was a chance for there to be a little bit of quiet in the house.
Jemma had been rather animated since Martin picked her up from school. He chose to walk home with her as the school wasn’t too far away from their house, and as it turned out, that was a good choice. She was jumping and skipping around while singing and talking. She was hard to keep up with as her mind jumped from one subject to the next, but he was glad to be around her.
After school she sat down at her desk in her room and drew picture after picture, running around to find Martin wherever he was and giving it to him, insisting it be put on the refrigerator. By the time dinner came around, there wasn’t a spare spot to be seen on the fridge. But seeing bits of Jemma’s imagination all over the kitchen was reason enough for Martin.
Thank goodness she wore herself out though.
A whole night of Jemma running around the house screaming would honestly do Martin’s head in. Especially if this would be happening every single day.
Halfway through the movie both girls fell asleep and Martin took them to bed, aided by Claire. He stood at the doorway for quite awhile, just leaning on the doorjamb, watching both of his daughters sleeping soundly. He hoped that he wouldn’t be called away again. His troop was pulled out of duty, but at any moment he could receive another phone call or letter, informing him that he was leaving.
It was hard enough the first time, being told just a few days after his youngest daughter’s birth that he would be flying across the world to fight people he didn’t know for a reason he didn’t entirely understand. He vowed to protect his country though and had been trained to do so. It was his duty, and when they said jump, he always had to say ‘how high’. He didn’t have another choice.
But at the same time, there was no way that he could leave his family again. It was hard enough adjusting to life as a husband and father, not to mention an everyday citizen of New York. He prayed almost each moment now he was given a reprieve that he was free to live out his life the way he intended, with his friends, family and everything he knew.
Maybe if he prayed enough that would come true?
He certainly hoped so anyway.
“Hey you,” Samantha’s soft voice said from behind him, her arms wrapping around his waist from behind as she pressed kisses to his neck. “Is everything okay?”
“Yeah, just thinking,” he breathed, glancing back at her with a smile. “How was your day?”
She smiled weakly. “Tough. Tough and extremely tiring.” She rested her temple against his shoulder. “I’m sorry I wasn’t home for dinner. I tried to be but things just continued to pop up and I wasn’t allowed to leave them in the lurch. Jack figured now that you’re back everything was okay. Sometimes I want to use him as a punching bag.”
Martin nodded. “Please don’t, for all of our sake.” He rested a hand on hers. “How did the case turn out?”
“Not good,” she whispered, shaking her head. “I don’t want to talk about it, not now.” She glanced in the room at her sleeping girls. “How were they today? Didn’t give their old man a hard time?”
He laughed lightly. “Well I spoke to Jem’s teacher and agreed to go in sometime soon to speak to the class though I really don’t think it’s appropriate. And Audrey was… well thanks to Claire, really. It was hard.”
“Hard how?” Samantha questioned with a frown, moving around to stand in front of him, glancing in at Audrey all curled up in her bed, a teddy bear tight in her arms.
“I don’t know.” He shrugged weakly. “She doesn’t look at me much or talk to me. I know she’s only two, but it’s like she’s intentionally trying to ignore me. She stays close to Claire too. I got a few words out of her this afternoon but that’s about it.”
Samantha ran a hand down his good arm softly. “I know it’s hard, but this is what she knows. She knows that on a Monday Claire takes her to the park to be with her friends and then they run errands. She knows what to expect. Having a strange man with his arm in a sling claiming to love her more than anyone else is probably hard to understand for her, and not just because of her age.”
Martin nodded. “I try and tell myself that all the time, but it becomes harder to believe each time I look at her, knowing that she could wind up hating me.”
“That will never happen.” She kissed him softly before looking in the room. “Let me say goodnight to them and change. I’ll meet you in the kitchen and have some dinner, we can talk in there, okay?”
“Sure.” He sighed and walked away from the room, choosing to take a seat on the living room sofa, rubbing his head. He knew Samantha was right and he was likely overreacting, but just knowing that losing a daughter like this was tearing him up. He thought sacrificing his family for his country was a good idea. If only he knew about the possible aftermath.
Chances are he wouldn’t have signed up in the first place.
Shutting his eyes he couldn’t help but yawn, the stress and events of the day really having gotten to him. He lay down and only opened his eyes when he heard the TV being switched off and someone taking a seat near his legs, resting them on their lap. Opening his eyes he smiled weakly, seeing a bit of spaghetti sauce on the corner of Samantha’s mouth. “Did I fall asleep?” he croaked.
“You did,” she replied with a smile, “but its okay. It gave me a chance to eat all of my food without you stealing some, and to eat it hot. I can’t remember doing that around you before. Usually we speak so much our food goes cold.”
“Yeah we do, don’t we,” he mused, smiling weakly and reaching behind him, pushing himself to sit up with a groan. He motioned her towards him, kissing her where the spaghetti sauce was. “You had some leftovers on your lips.”
She smiled. “I can never reach my mouth.” She kissed him again before pulling away, looking at his arm. “Do you want me to change your bandage again?”
“Actually that would be good, thanks.” He sat back and waited as she got up and grabbed the bandages for his wound. He removed the sling his arm was in and then his sweater and shirt, getting seated and ensuring she’d have room. She came back with the supplies, getting ready. “It’s still bad.”
Samantha met his gaze. “I’ve seen worse.” She removed his bandage and sighed, dampening a washcloth and dabbing around it, removing excess dry blood. It still looked rather nasty but she knew that it was healing. Martin didn’t seem to be in much pain at least. That was a bonus. “Sorry if I hurt you.”
He held his breath, looking away, unable to see it again. He felt her clean around the wound and then dry it, before taping the gauze and bandage over it. She gave his shoulder a soft kiss and continued tidying things up, throwing the old bandage out in the trash and putting everything else away. “Thanks Sam.”
“Anytime… just don’t make it a habit of getting shot,” she teased, taking a seat beside him and leaning on his good side. He put his tops back on, wincing a bit before resting back, resting his good hand on his bad arm, trying to breathe through the pain. “I wish there was more I could do.” She stared at him worriedly.
“Me too.” He glanced at her with a small smile. “It will all get better with time.” She kissed him lightly with a smile, curling into him tight. Time had to be on his side.